Well, today is that day....
Tucker fell off our bed (a height of about 2 1/2 feet), landing flat on the right side of his little forehead. He was sitting right beside me on the bed. I reached over for something on the other side of me and in that millisecond, he went head first, diving off the bed. It happened so fast that I had no time to react, but somehow it seemed to be happening in slow motion as I watched my Love Bug land hard on the (carpeted) floor with a look like, "What just happened and why does it hurt so bad?!" Of course I swooped him up as fast as I could. He screamed. I cried. I held him close to me saying over and over, "Baby, I'm so sorry! Baby, I'm so sorry!" with guilt-driven tears streaming down my face.
She was right. I felt like the absolute worst mother on the planet. I feel like I failed Tucker. I didn't do my job. I didn't keep him safe. I just feel SO. BAD. (still...)
She was also right that Tucker would be okay. He cried for about 3 minutes, just long enough for the dog dishes to catch his attention as I was carrying him around trying desperately to console him. He has a red bruise on his forehead. No goose egg. I called my pediatrician just to make sure he was going to be okay. He is okay. He has been his usual happy, playful self all day. The redness has subsided somewhat. It helped that my pediatrician told me I am now in a club that about 99.5% of mothers are in.
One of my initial thoughts was, "Wes is going to be so mad at me!" I'm not sure why I even thought that. Of course he was anything but, assuring me that Tucker was okay and that I shouldn't be so hard on myself. Actually, his exact text message a couple hours after I got off the phone with him and texted him telling him Tucker and I were going to visit a friend was, "Ok. Be careful and try not to beat yourself up. Tucker is tough! God is good, and merciful! I love you!" Thank you Lord for my amazing husband!
I didn't take a picture of him with his pitiful boo-boo....I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Maybe tomorrow. So instead, here is a picture of my happy Love Bug a few weeks back enjoying his summer.
I hope y'all have had a boo-boo free day!